When I look at my life now I can hardly believe that it is true. Even when it ies right in front of my face.
The perfect life that I have made for myself always existed, but I had to find my way to it like a blind man feeling his way through a cave.
My perfect life existed in two places. It existed outside of myself in a place beyond the town where I grew up and the paradigm in which I was raised and educated.
The same exact model lived also inside of myself. It was a construct that I had been steered away from from tv, from colleges. And from my family.
But every time I was gilted away from who I was inside another thing inside me said to look deeper.
Some sense of how the world should be told me to look inside myself and see what this construct was. I followed that sense even when it went against strong beliefs that had been engrained in me by the world I grew up in.
The more I formulated the sense of who I was deep down inside, the more I attracted myself magnetically to the other people and places where that was possible.
Until now when I do daily business with communities of people who live life the way I do. They never questioned it. They never had to look outside themselves. I found a culture inside of America in which people live along that path that was also alive inside of me.
What is unbelievable is how hard I was trained not to see it or be it.
When I was in my early twenties mountaineering instead of getting a medical degree, I was feeling out my better path.
When I was Running a surf camp in Maui in the 2000’s I was feeling out my better path.
When I started a solar installation company in 2006, I was feeling out my better path.
When I started a construction company in 2019, I had found myself.
These days when I negotiate a contract, or sign off on a subcontractor, it is astonishing how much of what I do is sheer instinct. I found my way into a lifestyle that was literally built inside of me. And I found an industry of people who vibrate the same way and have the same instincts and constructs.
